So I opened up to a gal friend last month telling her actually how bad and wild I am. I laughed at her reaction actually. Yup eyes opened so wide while jaws practically dropped. Weirdly for the first time I'd admit myself that I'm practically a bitch and a slut.

It's funny how I have so many restrictions and believes of myself. I'm stuck in this cubical of mine. I don't smoke, I used to never drink ( have wines these days) and I don't have intercourse but I have never ending oral fun with anal too. Those has been like my best friends. I told my friend about how I'd masturbate in the office and she practically choked. Actually she practically choked when I told her how I'd go to the ladies to masturbate just because I've had a migrane...... yeah it's true. Her only reaction is that.... Gosh u're a pervert!!. I guess when I told another friend I'm a pervert she just agreed!!

Well maybe I'm a pervert because I got nothing else to do. I seriously need a life.

Concerns from friends about my future were also discussed. Would I change to be a faihful and loyal wife in the future? Well I hope to get a guy who would love to explore territories..... but then again if I do really get someone nice and sweet and believes in being faithful to one and only...., I don't see why I must hurt that nice innocent heart.... after all he has loved me more than I'd have loved myself to actually want to marry me......... (errr I hope he can satisfy me in BED)

Then again we would just never know.

People also ask me why aren't I feeling guilty about what I'm doing... well my only answer is that..... " I'd start feeling guilty when I am committed to somone. Till then I think I'd be a free bird in my own world, being careful yet enjoying it all......"

It's been sometime since I had any fun and the pussy has been itching for its touch off late. Next week I'll be staying out and I just hope Andrew is free to meet up with me because most of the time he's prone to be cancelling at the last minutes which sometimes annoys me to the utmost... but then again I can't do much because he's more a friend and bed partner for he is committed someone else. Nevertherless being naughty with him has always been fun and somehow relaxing because he's one of the unique ones who knows what I really enjoy.

L if u're reading this don't be jealous yeah.... I did ask u if u're free to meet and u said u can't confirm.

Anyway nothing has been confirmed... would i even be meeting anyone that night..... No one would have the answer to that but ME for now..... would blog it all if i do feel like it...

Gosh!!! It's been sometime since I actually updated this blog. Well not so sure if I should or not actually. Lately too many people whom I know is reading this blog. I'm just afraid the truth would scare them all away.. as it is I think I'm infatuated with one of them. So can't say much.



Just wanted to pen out one experiance I had with a 51 year old man!!. He was damn cool but the only thing is that he was not the kissing type and that was a major blow as well. I thought least he would kiss me and lick me all but he kissed me a short while and asked me to blow him off. That was really weird for me. I thought to myself then... can't expect much from a 51 year old friend.



Told a friend about this and she only had one thing to say, " how could u!? He's as old as MY DAD!!!" and inner thoughts are just " Screw the age... as long as you are good and u read me well why not?".



Eye brows raising yet? Hmm just sense some jaws dropping too.. OKay, enough for culture shock and shall type something better after this........