I managed to meet up with Andrew during the weekend. I had a good time with him if you all know what I mean! :). It's been 1year and 6 months since I last met him. He looked much taller now and practically more handsome then what I can imagine. The minute I hugged him, I could feel his touch and smell. Truly brought back fond memories. His touch was so warm. It was nice to receive messages from him after it all. He sms'd one thing that really touched me which was, " i never realized how much i missed u". My whole life of having sex encounters, I never had anyone caring for me this much after oral. Actually this is what I expect from my sex friends. I'm not expecting them to fall in love with me, which is rubbish!!! All I want to hear from them is that I'm thought about not just as a sex symbol but as a friend. But not many out there are as genuine as him. I wonder if I should date more white guys than my own race!!!. Very speculating.......Love u Andrew.

Lately I've been thinking back of all my sexual encounters. Many have been of pleasure and some have been scary too. I remember my first 3some. It was full of jealousy involved. The girl did not like it that the guy was paying more attention to me. Scary but true. It was then I decided that if ever I'm going to have another MFF (two girls and one man) the girl has to be open minded. The first experiance of licking another pussy never really intrigued me. But later on I had a few other experiance in which I came used to it. Licking a pussy is actually the same thing for a man as well I guess. The girl must not smell. She must be sweet and natural. Actually I'm not so into licking another girl's pussy but I just love sucking nipples because I have inverted nipples.

But when I'm turned on the right way I would not mind licking another girl. It's all in the hands of the man I'm with. Is he good of getting me hot and in the mood? For this I'll have to admit that I'm bisexual.Am I proud to admit this? Well I'm not sure. But I know one thing for sure, I love to taste another woman with the presence of a man at least. Some porns suggest love making between 3 woman and 1 man and I'll find myself so wet just watching them all act. The fact and thought of gang bang always have intrigued me but religion has always stopped me of doing it. Even now I'm only a wild oral and anal sexed person. I'm just afraid in a gang bang, people might just screw me up and I won't be able to forgive myself for I'm not ready to have a cock in my pussy just yet.Talking about 3some, I've actually had 2 men and me before too. But that was a total screwed experience. Both the guys were just passing me around. When A was about to cum, he'd pass me to B and likewise, I was just tossed around. None oralled me or even got me high.... For this I was frustrated and ignored them after that. The 2 MMF experianced I had was total screwed. I wish to have memoriable and wondering MMF experiances, but I guess I still just have not found the pair that would accept the fact that I'm just an oral and anal person and no intercourse fuck!!!

I've been thinking what to write to update in my blog of late and a friend suggested writing out my fantasies. I have no idea how to write my fantasy as this whole blog has been real life stories and somehow I don't feel so right to change the tradition set by me. But anyway I think I got to change my point as I've not been meeting anyone of late.

Yesterday and today I've been on a masturbation spree. Masturbated like 4 times last night and 3times today. My baby vibrator still with me. I've been so tempted to throw it away as it is becoming an addict to me. But how do I throw it when it was given to me by someone who means a lot to me. Though it's been a year plus since I last met him I still miss him. I still remember his touch, his smell, his taste.......

Perhaps when I meet him soon I'm going to do something wild. Have you ever had a girl slurp ice-cream in her mouth and give you a blow job with the ice-cream in her mouth? Never? Well I know that some of my guys loved that experiance. I've had cold coca-cola in my mouth while blowing the guy too..... I guess it depends on the individual if he would love it or not. But I've never had someone returning the favour to me in this manner so I can't really say anything for now. Wish someday I'll have this wonderful experiance to actually share with you all.

But all I know, long time ago a guy drank beer from my cunt and it was a very burning sensation. I was not comfortable with the feeling. I guess I was naive and innocent back then. Can't blame me!!! Wish I get to do more wilder things soon........

A friend gave sound advice. "Never look down at yourself and be proud of your body. Always remember don't mix feelings with sex. Sex is just sex. Have it and enjoy it. Expecting much with a sex encounter will lead to disappointment"A lots of hidden truth in that.............................Thanks da

My, so many people on the mails asking me what's my next post is going to be? Seriously I don't know what to write. I write here the actual experiances of what I've had. So no updates would only mean NO encounters!. Somehow masturbating in the Love Torture Chamber seem to much pleasure me at the moment. Can't believe how water pressure gives more pleasure than vibrators!!!!!!!!!

I've always known to be confused and very lost. In other words, a blur NUT!. I don't blame people for thinking of me in such because sometimes I do and am weird. Got to admit that..... Sometimes I ask too much from my sexual partners that I think people are even scared of me. As my friends will say, signs of desperados :p. Funny though sometimes everything seems very logical but when you sit and listen to others you realize what a fool you've been. I guess this is what happened to me and S.

Anyway S is back in life. Though I've not met him yet, but he did mention he'll meet me next week or so because I'm having the RED ALARM again! I'm now confused. One whole month of not making love to anyone and my ALARMS seem to be coming on time. Normally I get it only 3-4 months once. I guess I might have lost weight a little to allow the stream flow without defects.! hehe Okay I'll stop this guy's disgusting topic now.