So I opened up to a gal friend last month telling her actually how bad and wild I am. I laughed at her reaction actually. Yup eyes opened so wide while jaws practically dropped. Weirdly for the first time I'd admit myself that I'm practically a bitch and a slut.

It's funny how I have so many restrictions and believes of myself. I'm stuck in this cubical of mine. I don't smoke, I used to never drink ( have wines these days) and I don't have intercourse but I have never ending oral fun with anal too. Those has been like my best friends. I told my friend about how I'd masturbate in the office and she practically choked. Actually she practically choked when I told her how I'd go to the ladies to masturbate just because I've had a migrane...... yeah it's true. Her only reaction is that.... Gosh u're a pervert!!. I guess when I told another friend I'm a pervert she just agreed!!

Well maybe I'm a pervert because I got nothing else to do. I seriously need a life.

Concerns from friends about my future were also discussed. Would I change to be a faihful and loyal wife in the future? Well I hope to get a guy who would love to explore territories..... but then again if I do really get someone nice and sweet and believes in being faithful to one and only...., I don't see why I must hurt that nice innocent heart.... after all he has loved me more than I'd have loved myself to actually want to marry me......... (errr I hope he can satisfy me in BED)

Then again we would just never know.

People also ask me why aren't I feeling guilty about what I'm doing... well my only answer is that..... " I'd start feeling guilty when I am committed to somone. Till then I think I'd be a free bird in my own world, being careful yet enjoying it all......"